Intro

The word pain has multiple definitions. It is described as uncomfortable bodily sensations. It is also described as mental or emotional distress or suffering. Most physical pains can be relieved if properly treated. But what about emotional pain? You cannot just pop an ibuprofen and forget about it. Most emotional pain is caused by hurt inflicted by others. This type of pain can affect your overall well-being which can lead to physical and mental symptoms. It can cause depression, self-esteem issues, isolation, etc.

When we get hurt something triggers us to protect ourselves. There is a saying that said time heals all wounds. But what if time has passed and you still feel the pain like it was yesterday? The normal thing to do is to bottle up the pain and keep it moving. Every time you get hurt this becomes your go to routine. Overtime you build layers to protect yourself from being hurt which cause you to carry around dead weight.

My Experience

Growing up, I had a normal life until one day my innocents was taken away. I was only 7 years old when I was molested by a family member. It continued until I was about 12 years old. I did not quite understand why it was happening. I couldn’t run away from it or the person because it was someone that I saw frequently. I’m not sure why I didn’t tell my parents when it first happened, but it felt like it was something normal. For many years I blamed myself for it. I didn’t understand that it wasn’t my fault. No one knew what was happening to me, I felt like no cared because if they did, they would have saw it, put a stop to it, or something.

This experience caused me to rebel. I started having sex at a young age because I thought that was what I was supposed to do. For years I carried this pain with me. I hated that person because they took away the normalcy of my life. I was left alone to deal with the pain and the hurt. I battled emotional with my self-esteem which brought me to a dark place. For a long time, I expected an apology from this person. Even when the truth came out, they denied it to my face which was a dagger to the heart. How can you battle something for years and no one knows about it? To them everything seemed normal. I was carrying around dead weight that was weighing me down. Only God knew my pain and only he could take it away. I had to allow him to peel the layers of hurt away. I had to speak to the layers of dead weight and let them know that they would no longer have power over me or my life.

Your Turn

Your pain is causing you to carry around dead weight. If you were molested, raped, abused, cheated, rejected, hated, judged, etc. Whatever may have happened to you or is happening to you right now, I understand your pain. But I also need you to understand that keeping silent is the enemy’s plan to keep you bound. The pain has left stains and layers of hurt on your life, but God said in Psalms 147:3, that he will heal the broken hearted and binds up their wounds. Allow God to release the dead weight. Allow him to peel back the layers of hurt, heal your heart and bind your wounds. You deserve to be free and be made whole.

Let’s Pray...

God, only you know the pain and hurt that I have endured. The pain has cause me to be in a place where I do not want to be. It has cause me to build layers of hurt but God I give it to you today in the name of Jesus. I renounce every pain, every hurt, and every plan that was meant to keep me bound. Heal my heart and bind up every wound. The dead weight will no longer have power over me and my life in the name of Jesus, I decree, and I declare.

Amen